Dear Diary,

mood...apathetic, hahaha. i was going to write something here but after further consideration i have deemed it, for now, to be for my eyes only

Lucky

Recently i've been laying awake at night, just thinking about how lucky i am. Last night was no exception, I lay thinking about how lucky/happy i am, unable to sleep because of my mind racing with the thought. A huge smile on my face............see you next Friday : )

Elation

I am the happiest i've been in as long as i can remember. When you are absolutely certain about how you feel about someone whats the point in waiting? I am so happy we are together, and i care about you so much, I miss you already but I take solace in the fact that no matter how far apart we are, I still always feel so close to you. i cant wait till i can see you again, ill be counting the days.......

I have learned that neither time nor distance changes the way you feel about someone, especially someone that can make you happy without even having to try. i had an amazing time in Madison this weekend, and i'm sad it had to end. goodbyes are never easy, but it helps a lot when its just a "see you soon"

Jealousy

jealousy is an ugly thing......

sleepless....

totally running on empty right now, last night was filled with 20 min of sleep and then dreams i didnt want to see in which i woke myself up to escape...i dont know how many restless nights i'll have to put up with before they stop......i do have next weekend to look forward to though, i cant wait to go up to madison. and last weekend in iowa was a blast too, and i should be getting my matches tickets in the mail any day, its nice to have things to look forward to.

class started today, seems like it should be an easy semester, but also kinda boring. the gas im gonna use from driving out there 3 times a week is gonna kill me. i am excited though because i have a few trips coming up, ill be in Iowa City this weekend and then Madison a few weeks after that. so that's whats keeping me going haha. I'm really grateful for my friends that stuck around because i miss the ones that left alot, cant wait till thanksgiving, and cant wait to visit in the next few weeks.