proactive?

nothing has changed....it is still impossible to keep you from my mind, not that i would want to...but instead of being sad all the time now, i'm trying to turn my free time into something productive. i joined a gym this morning and i'm writing in this blog.... haha well its a start. the last few days were probably some of my hardest ever. but now im trying to stay positive with the knowledge that i will be seeing you soon. just know that i miss you and care about you more than i know how....23 more days....................................